Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Everything but the Right Thing

I wonder why it is that I can not do what I'm told.  Wait, seriously I sound like my mother talking to me when I was in grade school but, it's true.  I'm a card carrying procrastinator, never been to a meeting because I can never seem to leave home on timeJ.  I've written to-do lists, action plans, and agendas but I still can't kick my ass in gear, it's crazy. 


At first I blamed it on my problem with authority because I swear I could be so excited about doing something but the moment someone even suggests that I do it I loose all interest.  I can't have anyone telling me what to do and that shit is severe, I've even decided not to go see movies because someone said, "you have to see this movie!"  What is that?  But now I disrespect my own authority on myself!!  I tell my self, self you have to do A, B, and C this morning and I still won't do it.  I have to have freedom and the ability to go on my own steam with no rules, orders or direction.  I know this isn't realistic but a girl can dream can't she?